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Thursday, August 24th, 2006
12:26 am
Ignore that poem below... I can't write poetry to save my life... >_>

Anyway... I had a great day today! I got to see Alina too! yay! ^_^

Current Mood: Good
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
9:30 pm
Ack Mein Gott in Himmel!!!
Could it be?! Yes, I wrote a poem... O_O Thats what I do... I make the impossible possible... Ninja now can right semi-poetry besides kill kill kill!!! lolz



I just wish I could see
The one I hold dear inside of me

The thought of you makes me pout
And hurts where I can't see
Anything but sweet dreams of you

I just want to let it all out
And unleash the feelings inside of me

My love for you is like a tree
Baby I miss you...
Oh can't you see?
I love you!
Do you love me?




Copyrighted 2006 by Blake t3h Hardcore Ninja Pirate Samurai Bad Ass!!! Still this from me and I'll come a knockin'!!! Its hard as Hell for me to write shit like that so don't steal!!!

I'm taking some ok college classes right now... which consists of English, Sociology, German, and Japanese! lol ^_^ My German book cost $200.00!!! O_O ...and I don't even know what my Japanese book cost yet... lol I'm scared... I just got a job and I'm already in debt before my second paycheck! lol Damnit all!!!

Wellz... I love my girlfriend Alina! ^_^ I just wish her step dad would let her go see a fucking movie with me on a school night! He made my somewhat good day bad today by not letting her go and I haven't seen her in 2 and a half weeks... I miss her so so much... I love her and can't stand this! I just want to hold her and never let go!

Current Mood: I need Slivovitz
Saturday, July 15th, 2006
8:49 pm
Shit... Someone Please Help Me Now... Please...
(Edited at 2:16 AM on 7-16-06 lol )Alrighty... I've made my mind up of who I want to go out with now and once my mind is set it is set... ^_^

Wow... lol Jerry! Jerry! Just got off the phone with Allyson, Roxie, and Corey on the 4 way phone call... lol We watched Jerry Springer and Blind Date while we were chatting on the phone... lmfao That was so disturbing... the shows that is... lol Nightmares!!! Ahhhhh!!!

Current Mood: confused
Saturday, June 24th, 2006
9:38 pm
I hate my life...
I feel so bad right now... T_T I don't even want to talk about it... Everyone says you can be as happy as you want to be... they are all full of shit... I want to be happy... but I am far from it... T_T Tomorrow throught Tuesday are going to suck balls... the end... T_T

Current Mood: Terrible
Monday, May 1st, 2006
10:08 pm
Doesn't Phase Me
My Injuries... lol These pictures were taken today (5-1-06)... Yes, I am hairy as hell... ok... and I'm flexing in all of the pictures because I can't stand for pictures of my muscles to be taken and me not be flexing... I don't know why... thats just how I am... so yeah... lol

Friday night when I was helping load back up the equipment from my friend's in Empiracy's Concert, the corner of this one 75 pound speaker I was carrying was pressing against my right arm really hard and I didn't know it until I got home that night that my arm was really hurting... then I didn't notice a bruise until today... Here are a couple pictures of where it is...

In the next one you can see the bruise a little better... lol


Alright... and on Saturday we had an airsoft gun war and my head and back got hit hundreds of times with those freaking fully automatic guns... lol That shit leaves marks... All of the red spots in this next picture of my back are where I got shot... there is a really nasty one on my left shoulder blade in the picture...


I gots a stye on my right eye tonight too... that shit doesn't feel good... lol

So yes... Physical Pain doesn't phase me anymore... because emotional pain has killed me on the inside... T_T

Current Mood: depressed
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
4:39 am
Momo Con ^_^
I may have failed at asking her out yesterday... but I did get to spend the majority of the day with her which I loved... and I also got a few pictures of her... I was going to ask her out and I had so many opportunities to also but I'm just a damned coward when it comes to stuff like that... T_T I really hope she doesn't give up on me... I'm trying hard... and I really do love her...

Jeff is picking me up at 8 AM this morning to go to Momo Con again... I don't think she is going to be there today but I shall see her tomorrow hopefully... My blood sugar is really low right now and it woke me up it was so low... so thats why I'm up at 4:43 AM in the morning on a Sunday... lol I'm debating whether or not I should attempt to get anymore sleep before I leave...

Current Mood: shaky... damn blood sugar
Friday, March 17th, 2006
8:17 pm
I'm Hurting on the Inside Right now but tomorrow is gonna kick some serious Ass!!! ^_^
Ever feel like you've fucked things up beyond repair? Ever wish you hadn't done something the way you did even though your intentions were good and pure? Ever wish you were more confident and had a higher self esteem? Ever wish you could tell someone to their face how much you care about them but just can't seem to do so no matter how hard you try? Ever feel like if you were able to do that that they might reject you? Ever feel so bad you wish you were dead sometimes? Ever considered something terrible if something didn't turn out the way you wanted it too? Well I have all of the above running through my head right now... but tomorrow I plan to end some of that... I was going to tonight but she couldn't meet up with me because she is stuck out somewhere far away right now... but I definately will tomorrow! I hope anyway... I love her and she needs to hear me tell her face to face and not online... I'm such a dumbass... I wish I could change that part of the past from last Wednesday night when I was a dumbass and asked her out online so that I might have a better chance with her... I've fallen in love with her... she is so wonderful... I want her to know... but I'm a damned coward when it comes to this kind of stuff... If I succeed tomorrow I will have overcome something I thought I would have never been able to do... I've been praying everyday that I will have the strength, bravery, and courage to do what I need to do... Right now I'm really sad though... I'm worried to death... I don't want to be rejected... that would kill me... literally...

Anyway... Momo Con tomorrow and Sunday from 10 AM to 12 AM (midnight) both nights! Hell yeah!!! ^_^ I can't wait! I'm gonna be a badass Ninja in a Cloak tomorrow! lol ^_^ I hope they let me bring one of my new bokkens with me and let me wear a black T-Shirt like a Ninja Mask! lol I hope I don't look like a complete jackass either... lol

Sarah and Betsy... ya'll should meet up with my local friends and myself tomorrow at Momo Con... it should be Hardcore Kick Ass!!! ^_^

Lets see... so who all do I know is going tomorrow? Hmmm... Myself, My Best Friend / My Space Wife Kat, Niccee, Karli, Ben, Ian, Jeremy, Jen from Chess Club and Sci Fi Club, Kate, Drew, Sarah, Betsy, Cameron, Lilly, Bo (maybe), Brandon (maybe), and Jeff is coming on Sunday... ^_^ w00t! I can't wait!

Now all I have to do tonight is get ready for it, call Ben about my ride, and build up my self esteem so I'll be able to ask out the girl I love tomorrow... I won't list her name though because she knows who she is and Niccee knows and Chris Lott knows and Brandon knows and thats enough I reckon and I'm thankful no one has made a big deal about it yet because then I'd never be able to ask her out because I'd be too damn nervous...

I rented Two for the Money tonight... I've been wanting to watch it a long time... I'll watch it to try and calm my troubled mind now... lol So far nothing has worked to get my mind off of what I must do so I can relax though... I guess I'll be able to relax hopefully after tomorrow when I do it... lol I hope...

Current Mood: nervous
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
11:50 pm
Damnit...
Damn... I had a good day but then I got to thinking tonight and I'm all depressed and stuff now... T_T I just wish I could be good enough for once in my pathetic life... I can't even write about whats bothering me it irritates me so much... T_T

Current Mood: Depressed
Saturday, February 25th, 2006
5:24 pm
Bored... T_T
List of stuff I just need to get out:
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Damn I feel so stupid... T_T
I hate Google's search thing because my Xanga
comes up on it... T_T
I'm dying of boredom today... T_T
Happy Birthday Kat! ^_^ I'm sorry you're grounded on your Birthday though... T_T That really bites...
I need to get a freaking job before my parents kick me out of the house which they already have but I came back and they decided to let me stay until I save up some money so now its gonna be some time really soon or I'm going to be homeless and unemployed... T_T
I'm stressed out... T_T
I can't trust my parents at all anymore... my mom lied to my dad last Tuesday just because she hates me and wants me out of the house and my dad took me to the Police Station because he believes her and there is nothing I can do to get through the truth to him... The cop told me that I could go to jail for battery and domestic violence and he told my dad they aren't responsible for me anymore and if they want me gone all they have to do is kick me out and if I don't leave the cops will come and kick me out... Then I got kicked out of the house but they let me come back the next day because my mom realized she can't do her real estate job without my help because she doesn't know how to upload her pictures and send email or add attachments to her email without my help... I'm just here until they're through using me basically... I'm not wanted... T_T Some of my friends helped me feel a little better but I'm still very hurt on the inside by this...
I need to have a chat with Brandon about some laws... so I can attempt to prevent fucking up my life more than I already have... T_T
I wish I had someone I could talk to about all of my problems and about whats bothering me so bad (I didn't list that up on the list btw and I can't talk about it...) but I just can't talk about some stuff... T_T

Current Mood: depressed
Saturday, February 18th, 2006
4:50 pm
Brandon's 18th Birthday Party was freaking awesome! lol ^_^
Brandon's 18th Birthday Party was one of the best ever and I say that honestly! Holy Shit! ^_^ I feel so Manly and Bad Ass after that Air Soft Gun War and Poker Game late last Night! ^_^

Alright... so what all did we do at Brandon's Party you ask? ^_^ lol Ok... Got to his house around 4:30 PM... first thing we do is play Halo 2... I won every single game up until when we stopped playing Halo 2 and started playing Halo 1 because Halo sucks and when you fall you die and you can't dual weild and I just don't like Halo 1... so I won the first game on Halo 1 and came in 2nd place on all of the other games up until Nick (Dough Boy) and Alex showed up... Before Nick and Alex arrived though Brandon, Ben, and I had already eaten Tacos for dinner, watched some of The Transporter 2, and started the Hardcore Professional Airsoft Gun War... ^_^

Now I shall give you all the details of the Incredible Airsoft Gun War we had last night that lasted for several hours... ok... It started out as Brandon and me (he wanted me on his team since it was his birthday and I'm good at war related stuff... lol) Versus Ben (Ninten)... lmfao Brandon was using my best Shotgun that he broke when we were making the movie the other day but I fixed it with some duct tape and he had his pistols, he had sun glasses to protect his eyes, and had a walkie talkie to communicate back and forth with me... I had some newer (but not brand new) sunglasses, I found while looking for stuff in my room yesterday, on to protect my eyes (keep in mind that it is very dark outside and Brandon and I had sunglasses on that made it even darker! lol), I had my binoculars just to mess around with the enemy's head... ^_^, I had a walkie talkie Brandon gave me to use, I had my trench coat on so I couldn't feel any 6mm BBs hit me unless they hit me in the hands or my head (and I did get shot several times last night in the hands and my head! lol), I had 2 knives on me just to have them (didn't use them though), I was using my Pistol, my Machine Gun, and my other Shotgun... ^_^ Alright so Ben used his 2 Pistols with some ammo I gave him (You lost the cap to the ammo Ben! T_T), and he had his Ninja Hoodie on with his Ninja Mask and was basically invisible in the dark and esp. if you were wearing sunglasses... lol Well anyway Brandon and I (after we found Ben... took us about 45 minutes to find him and then I was watching him through my binoculars out in the dark and shooting at him) basically OWNED Ben (But he put up a good fight though)... Then Nick shows up and I shoot him in front of his dad and while he was talking on his cell phone because I'm just an asshole like that... lol ^_^ Then since Brandon wanted Nick as well as me on his team I said screw that (Because that would have been so unfair to Ben) and I became a turncoat and was then on Ben's team! lol ^_^ So I give Nick my walkie talkie so he and Brandon could communicate with each other since I was switching teams and Ben had to keep both of his guns on them to make sure they didn't try to shoot me and I had my machine gun pointed at them... lol So then Ben and I head over to our base (The Shed) in the back yard and devise our plan... I traded my Machine Gun to Ben for one of his Pistols btw... Our plan was that I would just attack the hell out of Brandon and Nick while Ben builds a barricade in our base so that there would be no way that they could get him... lmfao... so then I charged Brandon and Nick and I PWND them both single handedly and they were begging me to stop shooting and tried to bribe me to be on there team and I was like, "No! HAHAHA!!!" lol and then I shot them some more and then went back to my base because I felt sorry for their helplessness and then they were shooting at me so I owned them again... then they told me they had an offer to discuss with me and I yelled to Ben that I was negotiating with the enemy (He had finished the incredible fortress by now btw)... so I walk over to Brandon and Nick and Brandon says he'll give me $5.00 to switch teams and help them defeat Ben since they couldn't defeat anyone with me on his team ^_^... lol and you all know how poor I am... so of coarse I took his offer (Hey... 5 Bucks... come on... who wouldn't?! lol) so Brandon gives me the $5.00 and I made up a plan for them and Brandon and Nick were now referring to me as Mercenary Huttoe btw... lol Anyway I told Brandon and Nick where to go and told them to lie low and stay hidden in their places until I turned on Ben... and they did... and I walked up to the base and Ben showed me his Barricade and we were talking and I looked around and was pointing my gun at stuff to make it look like I was looking for Brandon and Nick and about 5 minutes later I am facing Ben and I raise my shotgun up at him and I have a perfect shot that even went around his very impressive barricade and I say, "I'm sorry Ben..." and I start shooting him and he looked so shocked... lol I felt kinda bad but hey... its war and I was bribed with some easy money... its just like real life ya know... lol So yeah... Nick then charged the barricade and he and Brandon stepped in a load of Dog Crap... lol as I was jumping on Brandon's Trampolene and Shooting at Ben at the same time... lol Just imagine that site and think about all of the stuff I said I had on me... lmfao... well anyway then I reloaded and Nick and Brandon asked if Iwas ready and I said yeah and I jumped off the barricade and they sent me in first and I broke down the barricade and used a screen that was part of the barricade to my advantage and used it like a shield... it worked great! lol ^_^ and then I went to the door but ben had vanished like a true Ninja... so then I locked the other end of the shed so he couldn't get back in it and then I made my way out and Brandon, Nick, and I went to the front so we could play Halo and Ben had beaten us to it but we were done by then with the war... lol It was so awesome! I'm so glad I got to be a part of it and was like the best person at it! ^_^

So then we're playing Halo and Halo 2 and it basically kept switching back and forth between me and Brandon on who won the games but then we played on Turf to 100 but we ended early because we got bored after over an hour at playing the same game... lol so we stopped at 94 kills and I had 94 kills and Ben came in 2nd that time with like 90 or 91 kills... That was fun... we proved my triangle effect theory to be very accurate and also my squared effect theory to be very accurate... now I can't remember if the game to 94 kills was before or after we went out side to be honest... I think it was before so Nick wasn't there when we were playing this... so yeah... lol we mostly played Halo 1 while Nick was there... then Brandon calls Alex and Alex is at another party and says he'll be there in an hour... so we played Halo and got bored with it and so we decided we would attempt to freak Alex out by hiding out in the bushes with airsoft guns and jumping out and shooting him once he got there... lol So then Brandon and then Nick call him again and apparently Alex is trying to get some at the party he was at... lmfao so then he says he'll be over in 10 minutes and we wait 20 minutes and Nick calls him back and Alex is still at the other party trying to get some and he was making sure no one needed a ride home before he left... ROFLMFAOLOL!!!!! So then Nick goes inside to get a drink and I told him to get me one too so he did... then we hide in the bushes and Brandon calls Alex and he says he'll be there in 6 minutes... so after 10 minutes... still no Alex... lol Then about 2 or 3 minutes later we see his car and we were all in the bushes and I was literally inside a Bush (Not just behind a bush like the others... lol) and when he got there Nick and Ben were shooting him and then I pop out of the Bush with My Pistol and my Shotgun pointed in the Air and then I point them at Alex and yell (This is at around 10:30 PM or later btw... lol), "The Bush King Smites you!!!" and I shot him like three times... lol I got kind of carried away (Brandon said I looked High and was acting High... I wasn't high!!! Just to clear that up... lol it was the smell of the bushes outside... >_>) so then we went inside to play more Halo... and it went so so ya know... Then Ben had to go (at 11 PM)... then we played Halo on the big screen because Ben had to take all his link cables with him... and then Nick had to go (at Midnight) like right before we started watching Fight Club and our Poker Game... so poor Dough Boy missed out on the chance to win all of Brandon's money! lol ^_^ So basically Alex and I drained Brandon of his big stash of money and Alex and I both left with more money than we started with... I won about $8.00 or more in change last night! lol ^_^ We quit playing poker at around 3 AM... then we went outside and we did a mini airsoft gun war me and Brandon vs. Alex because Brandon likes making things unfair like that for others like Alex for example... lol And I left Alex use my machine gun but the blasted machine gun's spring broke... T_T damnit... so then we just quit and went back inside to play more Halo and to play a few more games of poker before we went to sleep around 4:45 AM... I had drunk a whole 2 Liter of Coca Cola Zero during this short period of time from when we came in to when we went to sleep also... lol then I woke up before Brandon and Alex at around 8 AM... and my stupid blood sugar had dropped to 60... T_T both of my hands were asleep... my body parts fall asleep like that when my blood sugar is low and my energy is just gone and you feel like you weigh several tons and you can barely move just to give those of you who have never had a low blood sugar before an idea of how it feels... sorry... lol So I get a snack and then I watched one of Brandon's Michievious little kitties start chewing on Alex's hair and then he woke up really fast... lol and then Brandon woke up and then the 3 of us head out to Waffle House and ate Breakfast... and then came back and we played more Halo and then Alex left and Brandon and I played Halo 1 on Legendary and beat the first two levels and quit... and then we had lunch and watched Dawn of the Dead and then I had to leave at 3 PM... Twas by far one of the best parties I've ever gone too! ^_^

Now I'm at home and my parents are being creeps as usuall... and my brother is being an asshole and is doing his best too piss me off but I'm gonna try not to let that spoil my good mood! ^_^

Current Mood: Incredible
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
5:53 pm
Today was freaking awesome!!!

Kat gave me a Heath Bar this morning and a big hug... I saved the Heath Bar for a 5th Period snack... it was very good! Thank You so much Kat! ^_^

My Classes all sucked though... Economics drains me so much and thats my last class of the day... I could be really like worked up and then go to it and feel like I'm dead once its over... lol So then I go to Chess Club but they're people in AP Economics still working on their tests so I wait for them to get done and my friend Joe sitting near the door took forever but he finished! lol Joe invited me to his bands (Empiracy) concert on March 4th (My 8th Year Anniversary of being Diabetic! lol) It sounds pretty hardcore! So I plan on going... Tickets are $6.00... does anyone else wanna go with me? March 4th is on a Saturday... It will be lots of fun!!!

Well then so anyway Jeff, Jeremy, Lilly, and I get in Jeff's car and go to Block Buster and I was raping them all at Soul Calibur 3 and then Jeff suddenly got good somehow and kicked my ass in it mysteriously twice... damn you Jeff! I was so freaking close man! lol Then we head back to school at 3:30 PM because Jeff had to get to the bank at 4 PM before it closes on him like it usually does... lol So Jeremy, Lilly, and I are looking around and everyone is gone except for Ian and his crew... lol We waited until about 4:15 PM for Chris Pettie (sp) to get out of detention so Jeremy could show him his skate board he wants to sale to him... Chris, Jeremy, and I went outside and Chris is really good! Its no wonder he has two sponsors! lol he jumped the stairs and did a ton of tricks and I have it all on my camera... and some bitchy administrator made him stop... I hate administrators... but it was fun... Then Jeremy and I hung around doing stuff after Chris left... Jeremy did attempted some tricks (notice the word attempted! lol) on his skate board and I recorded it... then I got a picture of Nick as he was leaving... lmfao and then I came home...

I'm going to see Underworld: Evolution tomorrow after school if anyone wishes to go with me... thats when I'm going... right after school gets out so I'll be home for dinner...

Does anyone read my Live Journal Anymore? Just wondering...

Current Mood: Great ^_^
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
6:41 pm
^_^ Happy Valentines Day Everyone
Oh man! Today was awesome! I got sick to my stomach... lol Too much chocolate and cookie cake... lol Lots of people brought candy today and I got a lot... we put it on the table we sit at in the morning in the Commons before school and had a little party! lol Then in 3rd period... Ms. Carbine, my Business Management teacher, got us a cookie cake and she let the people that made it to class on time (I was one of them because I'm always on time unless something is wrong... lol) have first dibs on t3h cookie cake! ^_^ It was so good... but hurt my stomach! lol Then I was walking to throw my trash away and she asked who wanted some more because she had two left and I was standing right in front of her so I got another one (The biggest of the two pieces) lol ^_^ Ms. Carbine is one of the coolest teachers ever... oh crap that reminds me I still gotta do another project for her class due tomorrow and another one due sometime soon... T_T Shit... lol There goes the moment... lol I was freaking out all day long at random times but I hung in there as always and made it through... Those lights at school and the claustrophobic (sp) atmosphere are hell on me... and I'm like highly alergic to heat but my mom is always telling me to wear a jacket in the morning so I do to please her even though she just nags and nags forever about me... T_T Oh yeah... my parents got me a $20.00 gift card to Wal-Mart and they gave me two cards! lol Kat says she has a present for me too but I missed her because I'm so freaking stealthy and she didn't see me... T_T (Sorry Kat... I hope you like your candy though! ^_^) Oh yes... almost forgot... Frau gave us Lolipops with gum in them eventhough she doesn't allow gum in her class... lol ...and we got to eat them and chew it too! ^_^ Frau is the best teacher!

In Economics we had a test... T_T I hate tests... and it was hard too... I had to write two essays and a short answer thing in addition to the 50 questions... Some people were finishing after only about 20 or 25 minutes and I was no where near done and was all like whoa... lol It took me about 45 minutes to do it all... I sure hope being in Honors Economics pays off...

I went outside today when I got home and practiced with my bokken and my airsoft guns... my bokken seemed really heavy today I'm guessing because its been a while since I've practiced because I've been sick but after a while I was back to my normal self... ^_^ I'm fast as lightning again! ^_^ ...and my aim with my airsoft guns isn't bad! ^_^ I wish Brandon hadn't broken my best and favorite gun though still... I miss it...

Brandon's 18th Birthday Party is Friday from 4 PM to Saturday Morning at 11 AM... I can't wait! ...but sadly I told my mom and she wants me to come home Friday night and says I can't spend the night... I hate her... she never lets me stay for the whole parties... and I'm 18 years old damn it!!! T_T Why... I waited all my life to reach this age so I could have some control over my life and I still don't... Its really unfair in every way... I wish I had a job so I could save up my money and move out and then she can't tell me what I can and can't do anymore... and then I'd be a much happier person I'm sure... I'd probably get lonely though... but I already am at home anyway... so I still think it would be better! ^_^

Current Mood: Sick but really Happy! ^_^
Saturday, February 11th, 2006
12:58 pm
NU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T
Damnit... I'm still sick... My mom says I have to stay home today... T_T My dad went out to do some shopping a little while ago and I asked him to pick up DOOM for me while he is out and told him I'd pay him back when he got home so I have that to look forward too... Everyone I had plans with today... I R sorry... T_T I hate being sick... I slept 13 hours last night which is a lot for me and I still feel bad... its not fair...

I wonder if Jeff, Jon, and Cameron went to that gay convention known as Furry Con again... lol I told them there is no way in hell I'm going to that again after last year... I think its this weekend but I'm not sure... last year some gay dude told me I was cute and I just said ok and back away slowly and he says he didn't mean to offend me and I said alright and got the hell out of there... lol Then I found Jeff because Jon had was missing and Jeff agreed that we should take a break from the convention so we went to KFC / A&W for lunch which is way better than normal KFCs because they have Root Beer! lol And then Jeff made a documentary which I don't think he has any more where he says, "So far so good today... neither of us have been molested... well... Blake got verbally molested... *points the camera at me* *I shake like I'm scared* lol That was funny... then some girl artist in the artist alley comes up to Jeff and shows him her drawing of a naked cat boy and Jeff is all like, "Thats nice..." *secretly wishing for her to hide that from his eyes* lol and she says, "Ok... don't say you think that he needs a dildo in his hands!" Jeff is like, "Actually, I wasn't thinking that!" She gives him a questionable look and I go sit down at Jon's table and someone hands me a dollar (Jon ran off earlier because he was angry at the guy sitting next to him for criticizing his work) for one of Jon's badges he was selling that said, "I know DDR" and I'm all like oh shit Jon told me not to sell anything but its not my fault he left some out with the price still on them... shit... so Jon shows up out of nowhere and I hand him the dollar and he yanks it out of my hand and gets really pissed off at me and throws all the stuff that he was selling on the table at me and runs off again griping about me... I'm like, "Bastard!" lol Jeff is like "Whoa!" lol But I forgave Jon because he is a good friend... On Saturday on the way home from FWA (Furry Weekend Atlanta / Furry Con 2) I was feeling bad and my heart felt like it was skipping beats and I was like shit that hurts and Jeff asks if I'm alright and I'm like yeah so then on Sunday morning I am very sick but just think its a cold and so Jeff's dad, Jeff, and I head on out there and Jeff and I are mostly just playing Halo 2 the entire day... This was the day I started to get good at Halo 2... gee... lol I wonder why... lmfao Those gay guys were actually really good at Halo 2... but when I go one on one with them I won everytime... I was like damn... wtf?! I think they let me win for some sick twisted reason... O_o They were even better than Jeff!!! We did a battle with the plasma swords though and I beat everyone on that I'm proud to say! ^_^ lol So anyway I felt like shit on Sunday and then it was night time and I was watching Jeff and some really nice hot girl doing DDR... and I was sitting in front of like 10 fans and I felt so bad... So I get home and then I'm out of school on that Monday and then Tuesday I had to stay home and go to the doctor and then the doctor told me I had the flu... and I really think its from drinking their water at that convention because I remember drinking some nasty tasting water there... so then I'm out the whole rest of that week of school... and I have promised myself that I will never go back to Furry Con ever again in my life time!!! lol And I'm sick this year anyway so HAHAHA!!! T_T I hate being sick...

Current Mood: Sad and sick
Friday, February 10th, 2006
7:23 pm
Damn...
T_T School sucked ass today... started off bad and ended bad... T_T

I'm so sick of writing about how crappy my days are but they are... T_T I'm gonna make big plans for tomorrow and pray that I'll be well tomorrow...

...so first thing this morning I wake up at 4 AM thinking its time for me to get up because the lights in the hall were on... I was wrong of coarse... actually it would seem my little brother was having a puke fest in his room! O_O I told him not to take a bath in that bath tub the other night... but he didn't listen to me because he hates me... oh well... poor kid... serves him right though... so he threw up 4 times before I even left for school and I didn't fall back asleep at 4 AM... T_T I lost my sleep time I needed very badly... T_T

I missed my bus this morning... so my dad gives me a ride to school and I laugh to myself when I get there because I beat my bus! lol First thing this morning I go to make up my Adv. Algebra and Trig. test I missed the other day... Well... my teacher wasn't there when I got there... O_O and she is the one that told me to come this morning... I was hoping to make it up this afternoon instead but no... lol so anyway right as I gave up on her at 7:19 AM this morning she was coming through the doorway... O_O yeah... so I started my test and did like 2 problems and had to go to my first period before I was late to class... T_T so then I get to first period, Adv. Multimedia, and Ms. Fucking Jarrel says to me in front of the whole class, "Blake! How am I supposed to know this paper is yours?!" and I was pissed at her for doing that so I said really smart assly of me back, "...because my name is on the back maybe..." lol she is the dumbest bitch alive! OMG!!! she then said, "I'm taking 10 points off!" and I mumble, "Fuck you bitch..." to myself and this girl sitting next to me started laughing... lol Ok... so then I leave first period which was t3h sucks to go to 2nd period and I have to take the 6 Weeks test... T_T and then I finished early because it was short and I BSed most of it... so I finished my other test right as the bell rang to go to 3rd period... then in business law I start having my little freaking out moments I get sometimes... I hate those lights!!! T_T Then after 3rd period I stop by the check in / check out office to get my check out note from yesterday excused and the old woman took her precious freaking time and made me wait like 4 minutes for her to do something real fast as she puts it and then I run to Frau's class and I make it right after the bell rang but i snuck in and Frau didn't care and might not have even noticed... lol so then my usuall seat has a bunch of stuff in it and I hate change so I had to find another seat though... so I took Walter's seat who was out and it freaked people out because they weren't expecting to see me there... lol I'm Ninja! ^_^ but then I had to do like all of our little group work though... T_T I like to work alone better when I don't have any good friends in a class... so anyway then I go to 5th period and I felt guilty because Hart and Greg had to work on our project without me for the past three days and I wasn't available to help out with it and part of it was due today... but I'm going to Greg's house Sunday to finish up on it... and then I eat lunch and I feel all weird and shit... and I go to sit down and everyone tells me that Samir (my friend who was going to pay me to be his bodygaurd) got arrested on Wednesday (The day I was really sick to my stomach) for possesion of pot... O_O so I now have my own seat at lunch at least until he comes back to school whenever that will be but he was a good friend to me even if he was a druggy... I gave him his alias which is Grasshoper back on Monday before I got sick... lol so I was sitting in Samir's seat today and Samir always eats slow and today I was eating slow as hell like he always does and was like wtf?! O_O I think that seat at the table makes you eat slow for some reason... lol and I wasn't that hungry to begin with... so I stuffed my mouth full of the stuff and ran up with Nick to take care of some stuff and then the bell rang and my blood sugar was low (but I didn't do anything to help it because I wasn't in the mood) and I had to run back to get my stuff and the janitors were throwing my lunch box and stuff on the ground (It has over $100 worth of my diabetic supplies in it which are fragile by the way... T_T) so I attempt to rescue it then I run to 6th Period and I see Coach Shue in the hall and I give him my notes and stuff and he told me that my mom had called him about the issues I had with him on Monday (OMFG!!!! My mom can't be trusted! T_T) so I had to explain that to him and I acted like it was no big deal to me when it really was and then he told me how much he loves me which was creepy... lol and so then I have a bunch of stuff to do in there and Then I get on the bus to go home and I feel like I'm seriously dying... I was hot, my blood sugar was low, my stomach hurt, and my nose was stopped up to where I couldn't breathe at all... T_T so I get home and get a snack and go outside and I feel a lot better but my stomach is still bothering me even now (7:20 PM)... It smells like Plague at my house... going outside felt so good... to breathe that non-disease infested air... it was so crisp and pure... how I miss it... I've been locked up inside this Plague House for too long... tomorrow I'm hoping I'll feel better and I've made big plans already! ^_^

I hope ya'll had a better day than me and hopfully I shall have a great day tomorrow! ^_^

Current Mood: Dead Sick
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
11:51 am
I checked out of school early today... I have a doctors appointment this afternoon at 5 PM... I hate going to the doctor but I think I might have the flu or something and I need to get it taken care of... I'm gonna see if my mom will let me get DOOM on the way home since I actually have enough money to get it which is incredible...

I don't think I should do anything this weekend either because I don't feel well and I don't wanna get anyone else sick either so perhaps next week we can all do something but I can't this weekend... T_T

I feel sorry for my group in LA because Greg and Hart gotta do the project without me and its a group project so that really sucks I couldn't have of been more help to them like I normally would have been if I weren't sick... Sorry guys...

So right now I might get a nap or something... I just feel bad...

Current Mood: Sick T_T
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
12:04 pm
I am really sick today... T_T
T_T I didn't skip school today... I really am sick... I woke up early this morning (actually I couldn't sleep last night so I was already awake) and I got up because I was freezing (Very unusuall because I am always hot) and my stomach was killing me... at 5:15 AM I threw up (I never throw up... I really am sick today) then again while my brother was getting ready at 7:10 AM I threw up again... so I'm home sick today... and my mom went to her friend's mother's house which she is trying to sale right now to take some more pictures and my brother will be home soon because he is on early release today... I feel like crap and this is my 5th day out this semester so I can't miss anymore days or I won't be able to exempt my finals... T_T Its not fair the school only gives us 5 sick days per semester... T_T

I hope everyone else isn't sick like me and that you all have a good day!

Current Mood: sick and in pain
Monday, February 6th, 2006
11:11 pm
I Hate School with a Firey Passion!!! T_T Today was a terrible day...
I thought I had a bad day yesterday but my school day today was far worse than yesterday... I want to kill someone right now... He angered me very badly today... but I would never kill anyone though because of all of these stupid laws... but I want to ya know... It just pisses me off so bad what some people can get away with... and yet I can't get away with doing anything to them because of all of these fucking laws!!!

Lets see... I was sad enough when I realized we were gonna have to go to school today and the weather people were full of shit as usuall... I really needed a day off today to hang with my friends... 1st period in Adv. Multimedia started my day off to a bad start this morning... Ms. Jarrel really pisses me off sometimes with her ways... then 2nd period was good but I'm gonna fail that test in there (Trig.) tomorrow because I don't get how to do this stuff without my notes... Then in 3rd Period I found out I made a 77 on my test from last Friday and the people around me were shouting out my grade like assholes because I didn't get a 100 on it and they all told me how disappointed they were with me... and I wanted to kick all of their asses because I was angry enough at myself because now my 100.63 average in there is gonna drop like mad because that test counted as 25 % of our overall grade in there right now... T_T Then in German today it was ok... Chas and I are partners on this stuff we gotta do out of the book talking about buying big red tators in german... lol Then in 5th Period Hart wasn't there today so Greg and I had to discuss everything and do a lot of work on our group project ourselves... and I have a shitload of work to do tonight because of it... T_T Greg's cool though... we just both have so much to do tonight with that stupid project... Then lunch was average... nothing crazy happened today... Then... OMFG!!! I go to 6th period which is Economics with Coach Shue... and find out that we have a quiz over chapter 5 and another quiz over this gay ass book we apparently (I never knew) were supposed to have of read most of it over the weekend for this gay ass quiz... as if last weekend wasn't busy enough for me... so I do the best I could on both of the quizes... and felt really bad but tried to not let that get me down worse than I already was from my already shitty day but Coach Shue as I was walking away says in a really smart ass prick tone, "Do you have your book?! Did you read it?!" *He is looking at me like a retard by the way with his eyes all big and his mouth hung open* I said, "Yeah, but I didn't finish..." (Which was true... I read about half of what we were supposed to do because I didn't know we had to have it done today and I had a busy weekend and felt like complete shit due to my parents yesterday...) Then that mother fucking cockbite says, "Congratulations..." in that asshole tone of his... I wanted to say, "Thanks you Fucking asshole!" and I wanted to kick his ass but I stopped myself and just didn't do or say anything... I was so mad... The guy in front of me turning his paper in has less written down and more blank than I did and he only pointed me out and no one else... Coach Shue before today was kinda in between my good and bad side and I've tried nothing else but to be nice to him but today he pushed me way to far and said a bunch of shit he never should have... He is now on my bad side with Vanessa Middleton and that pedaphile across the street from Ally... I hate him... and if there is one thing I hate more than anything it is to be pointed out like Coach Shue did to me today in front of the whole class for him to make a fool out of me like that... I came home and my mom noticed I was in a terrible mood and even bothered to ask what was wrong (Its the apocolypse... My mom actually cares sometimes! O_O) and I told her and she is mad about how he treated me too... I also said a prayer for God to punish him for being such an asshole...

I hate the world we live in... I wish I could have lived a long time ago and wish I could have been a warrior of some kind because I'm sick of weak little people getting to treat people however they want just because they can live comfortably behind all of these stupid laws made to protect evil little assholes just like themselves who like to see people be depressed and get angry and not be allowed due to stupid laws to throw them the beating they deserve... Some people need to have their asses kicked and they deserve it too... The only thing saving these people from getting their asses handed to them is all of these pathetic laws made to protect the weak... I hate people who talk big and treat other people however they fill like and if they really got in a fight they wouldn't be able to back themselves up if they make someone mad doing so... I think they deserve to have their asses kicked... No one has the right to treat people that way and this corrupt society lets them get away with it because it has so many laws to protect them from the people they mistreat... Its really not fair nor ethical at all... In fact it really disgusts me more than you could ever imagine... I'm so sick of bein mistreated!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Sad and Angry
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
5:45 pm
No weekend is Perfect... T_T
Friday and Yesterday were so much fun! I got to break a board yesterday for our commercial at Greg's house... Today however, really sucks... I feel like complete shit and my plans got ruined by my parents that I had for today... T_T I don't feel like typing much right now either... I hope the weather people are right about it supposed to snow tomorrow because I need another day off... If my plans would have gone right for today it would have been the perfect weekend other than all the insults, names, and everything my parents have been saying to me and other than the way they treat me...

Current Mood: Bad
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
5:34 pm
Mittwoch der Einste Februar (Wednesday, February 1st) My Day
Hallo Everyone!

Whee! Today was interesting... I watched my friend Brett play Halo in Adv. Multimedia today... he isn't that bad... I'd play too if I didn't suck so bad at the PC Version... I tend to stay away from things I'm not good at and work harder at the things I am good at... Like I can't dance so I don't do it and I suck at DDR because I can't dance so I don't do it either... and I suck at poetry so I don't do it... and I suck at talking on the phone so I don't do it (Except when its absolutely necessary... I'd rather be talking in person than on the phone anyday) and how I've basically given up in Adv. Algebra and Trig. so I don't even try anymore... I hate that class... If anyone reading this is good at Trig. please help me... I would be very grateful... My teacher in there is really nice but she just doesn't teach in a way that I can understand... We had a Substitute last Friday that taught clearer than my normal teacher... the Substitute made sense to me but my teacher doesn't so there is no hope for me unless someone else can help me... I've got a fifty something in there right now... and I can't graduate unless I pass that class because its a core class... T_T

I became very angered today in German, 4th Period... I'm in Honors but the lower German 2 Class is in there too because there is only one German 2 Class period... so I mess up one time today because I got confused because my blood sugar was high all morning... and they yelled out, "Special Ed!" then... I wanted to and almost did yell, "Shut the fuck up!!!" back at them... then in LA today in 5th Period the people in there are so freaking noisy and irritating... I wanted to yell, "Shut the fuck up!" at them too... I get crazy when my blood sugar is high... my leg was bouncing up and down all day today by itself from all the energy caused from my high blood sugar... Anyway my friend Asian Greg and I are gonna do a group project together... we're supposed to be in groups of 3 or 4 but no one else wanted to be in our group so we were just like screw them... lol so we're doing it together... for our commercial we have to make for our trivia board game we have to make he said I should break some cement blocks and be like, "If you don't buy our game that will be you!" lol He is awesome!

By lunch today I was shocked that my blood sugar had dropped from the high 300's to 117... It was probably due to all of the bouncing my left leg was doing all day... lol

We had another interesting lecture in Economics today... Coach Shue is actually pretty cool... I guess I at first dreaded his class because of all the terrible things I had heard about him but he is cool...

After school I went to Frau's Room and made up a Quiz from 2 Fridays ago that I missed... Kapitel 6 Nouns 1... I think I did good but Idk... I have no self confidence in myself unless I'm fighting... I'm a confident fighter because I know I'm good at that... but thats about it... at least that I've noticed I'm good at... I'm good at Business Classes... but who isn't though?

Anyway after I made the quiz up Jeff was coming in the door to Frau's room... lol and he said, "There you are! Everyone has been asking where Blake is! HAHA!!!" lol Idk... I thought that was funny... The things I think are funny no one else does or at least they don't seem like it is... and the things other people think are funny aren't to me... and I'm all "HAHAHA!!!" anyway... I laugh to make them feel good... I am very odd and way too serious... I apologize... as Jon said at lunch one day a few weeks ago, "We're all Nerds at this table or Nerds in training! Except for Blake! He is in his own class!" To be honest... I kinda like being in my own class of whatever! lol I'm Ninja! ^_^ Then at Chess Club we played a good game of DND and Nick was DMing today! I like it when he is DMing... he always makes my character seem bad ass! lol Gotta love those natural rolls of 20 on the D20 Dice... lmfao DND is so stupid but its fun because its so stupid... I love DND! lol I probably will never play again after I graduate this May though... It wouldn't be fun without my awesome friends...

Then around 3:45 PM after several teachers and administrators bitched at us for being to loud we walked down to Block Buster and I was the only one that brought my stuff because I decided to just walk home since I live so close to Block Buster... everyone else left Block Buster and Sonic (Jen and Jeremy had gone to Sonic while Jeff, Elliot, Roxie, and myself were at Block Buster) at about 4:20 PM and I walked home in the other direction... I think I'm gonna shave my mustache off... everyone has been making mean comments about me the past 2 days... It angers me...

Well today I had known when I walked out the door this morning that I was forgetting something but I couldn't figure out what that something was... and guess what I forgot!? lol I forgot to bring my check for the Cap and Gown for graduation! I'm fucked now! I just remembered just now as well that I forgot to stop by the Career Office (where ever the hell that is) to have them send my transcript and SAT scores to some colleges... I'm so behind on everything these days... I'm just too stressed out... I can't stand it... I have too much to deal with... T_T

Oh well... Friday Brandon, Danny, and I are making a movie... Then on Saturday Jeremy and I are gonna sword fight with real swords if anyone wants to watch or come sword fight too feel welcome to come and do so... Its gonna be so fun! ^_^ I guess I won't sharpen my sword (Its gotten dull because I've been cutting stuff up... >_> with it) since I'm sword fighting with him in case I accidentally nail him in the arm or hand or something... lol *Cough* Or the face! *Cough*
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Hallo Everyone!

Whee! Today was interesting... I watched my friend Brett play Halo in Adv. Multimedia today... he isn't that bad... I'd play too if I didn't suck so bad at the PC Version... I tend to stay away from things I'm not good at and work harder at the things I am good at... Like I can't dance so I don't do it and I suck at DDR because I can't dance so I don't do it either... and I suck at poetry so I don't do it... and I suck at talking on the phone so I don't do it (Except when its absolutely necessary... I'd rather be talking in person than on the phone anyday) and how I've basically given up in Adv. Algebra and Trig. so I don't even try anymore... I hate that class... If anyone reading this is good at Trig. please help me... I would be very grateful... My teacher in there is really nice but she just doesn't teach in a way that I can understand... We had a Substitute last Friday that taught clearer than my normal teacher... the Substitute made sense to me but my teacher doesn't so there is no hope for me unless someone else can help me... I've got a fifty something in there right now... and I can't graduate unless I pass that class because its a core class... T_T

I became very angered today in German, 4th Period... I'm in Honors but the lower German 2 Class is in there too because there is only one German 2 Class period... so I mess up one time today because I got confused because my blood sugar was high all morning... and they yelled out, "Special Ed!" then... I wanted to and almost did yell, "Shut the fuck up!!!" back at them... then in LA today in 5th Period the people in there are so freaking noisy and irritating... I wanted to yell, "Shut the fuck up!" at them too... I get crazy when my blood sugar is high... my leg was bouncing up and down all day today by itself from all the energy caused from my high blood sugar... Anyway my friend Asian Greg and I are gonna do a group project together... we're supposed to be in groups of 3 or 4 but no one else wanted to be in our group so we were just like screw them... lol so we're doing it together... for our commercial we have to make for our trivia board game we have to make he said I should break some cement blocks and be like, "If you don't buy our game that will be you!" lol He is awesome!

By lunch today I was shocked that my blood sugar had dropped from the high 300's to 117... It was probably due to all of the bouncing my left leg was doing all day... lol

We had another interesting lecture in Economics today... Coach Shue is actually pretty cool... I guess I at first dreaded his class because of all the terrible things I had heard about him but he is cool...

After school I went to Frau's Room and made up a Quiz from 2 Fridays ago that I missed... Kapitel 6 Nouns 1... I think I did good but Idk... I have no self confidence in myself unless I'm fighting... I'm a confident fighter because I know I'm good at that... but thats about it... at least that I've noticed I'm good at... I'm good at Business Classes... but who isn't though?

Anyway after I made the quiz up Jeff was coming in the door to Frau's room... lol and he said, "There you are! Everyone has been asking where Blake is! HAHA!!!" lol Idk... I thought that was funny... The things I think are funny no one else does or at least they don't seem like it is... and the things other people think are funny aren't to me... and I'm all "HAHAHA!!!" anyway... I laugh to make them feel good... I am very odd and way too serious... I apologize... as Jon said at lunch one day a few weeks ago, "We're all Nerds at this table or Nerds in training! Except for Blake! He is in his own class!" To be honest... I kinda like being in my own class of whatever! lol I'm Ninja! ^_^ Then at Chess Club we played a good game of DND and Nick was DMing today! I like it when he is DMing... he always makes my character seem bad ass! lol Gotta love those natural rolls of 20 on the D20 Dice... lmfao DND is so stupid but its fun because its so stupid... I love DND! lol I probably will never play again after I graduate this May though... It wouldn't be fun without my awesome friends...

Then around 3:45 PM after several teachers and administrators bitched at us for being to loud we walked down to Block Buster and I was the only one that brought my stuff because I decided to just walk home since I live so close to Block Buster... everyone else left Block Buster and Sonic (Jen and Jeremy had gone to Sonic while Jeff, Elliot, Roxie, and myself were at Block Buster) at about 4:20 PM and I walked home in the other direction... I think I'm gonna shave my mustache off... everyone has been making mean comments about me the past 2 days... It angers me...

Well today I had known when I walked out the door this morning that I was forgetting something but I couldn't figure out what that something was... and guess what I forgot!? lol I forgot to bring my check for the Cap and Gown for graduation! I'm fucked now! I just remembered just now as well that I forgot to stop by the Career Office (where ever the hell that is) to have them send my transcript and SAT scores to some colleges... I'm so behind on everything these days... I'm just too stressed out... I can't stand it... I have too much to deal with... T_T

Oh well... Friday Brandon, Danny, and I are making a movie... Then on Saturday Jeremy and I are gonna sword fight with real swords if anyone wants to watch or come sword fight too feel welcome to come and do so... Its gonna be so fun! ^_^ I guess I won't sharpen my sword (Its gotten dull because I've been cutting stuff up... >_> with it) since I'm sword fighting with him in case I accidentally nail him in the arm or hand or something... lol *Cough* Or the face! *Cough* <_< >_> <_< >_> I still haven't gotten to go see Underworld: Evolution yet... If anyone wants to go see it with me let me know... everyone that wants to see it already has or is going to this weekend without me of coarse so I may just go by myself... It'll suck but I heard its an awesome movie full of the kinda stuff I'm into... lol so it will be awesome!


Current Mood: Hot... Its so freaking hot...
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
9:57 pm
Yay! I worked out today! ^_^ I feel really strong now! ^_^
I'd say today was awesome but mostly for 3 things... lol School sucked but in 6th Period in Economics today we all looked out the window and one of the construction workers was working a rope just like a lasso and slinging it all over the place it was so funny and Coach Shue said, "Yeeehaa!!!" That was a priceless moment! lol You all have no idea how great that was! lol When I got home I was chillin' on My Space and AIM then I left around 4:30 PM or so to go work out and I worked out really hard today and was happy that I still have my average level of strength even though I hadn't worked out in 3 weeks because I had injured my wrist with some 100 pounds freeweights 3 weeks ago... lol Its all good though! ^_^ I'm still strong and I feel stronger than ever today when I got home you see because I was about to quit and leave but my cousin and cousin-in-law arrived to work out also... and... well... I got a 2nd wind... lol I love working out with people who are about as strong as I am... So I worked out them after I had already finished my workout... lol so I got a double workout... They were doing legs today... so I did lots of sqauts and stuff... I'm gonna try working out with them more often... they help me with my form and give me some will to want to do more than they can do... lol Makes me work out much harder than I normally would... ^_^ My cousin Greg may be stronger than I am (My Quads are stronger though! ^_^)... but He is 3 months older and has been playing Base Ball, Basket Ball, and Football for many years... but I'm stronger than my cousin-in-law Eric, who has his own land scaping business, and he is 21 I believe! We're all strong though... and we all show off when we get together... Well that was fun! lol ^_^ The other good part of my day was that I got to have Mexican Food for dinner... I love beef and cheese nachos... ^_^ Well, I hope everyone is well and had a great day today and has a great rest of the week!

Current Mood: Yay! I feel über Strong! ^_^
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